cloud of thoughts

    Hmm idea of sharing my day has been lingering around for quite some time now.. but ok let me start


    I am afraid about one thing…. Now a days..


   


    I don’t want to actually go into details of what happened to me in last few months..but just want to start from now..


    AS I said.. I m afraid of one thing.. and it is.. will ever love anyone again.. coz now a days.. I just have lost the desire to be with anyone. I was actually thinking that will I love to hold a breast of someone I love and in general…am I even interested in the whole love making thing ....... I m interested in sex but making love has different perspective right? Now let me clarify for some of the readers…. That I don’t tick in the other way…ok? So don’t have ur dirty mind fill it with imagination and cast me with guy.. I m not that kinda DUDE… its not that kinda party …!


    I was going through a news site and saw a picture about nude (and not naked) gal.. and I didn’t stare.. it was odd for me..


    And then I just checked if I m into it or not by thinking about it real hard.. and I did …………but didn’t feel connected…


    Its sad to see the side effects of the broken heart !!!


    Life goes color blind when love is lost isn’t it?


    I really love the song by Bob Dylan called “don’t think twice babe, its alright” .. will it ever be alright?


    When she was around.. I use to sparkled.. but even now.. when she is around.. I don’t know what to even say … its been 5 months.. but things are cold but not diluted a bit.


    Why….and how one loves someone.. for what reason……..


    Why I loved her and she loved some else…..who didn’t even respect her as a women but wanted to sleep with her….just for one night!


    The song states that if haven’t understood it by now there’s no point in understanding…. So I guess I will never know why it was not me…why!


    Question still remains….do have enough left in me to LOVE?

    God only knows !